Growing up, I was always taught to constantly pray, read the Bible, attend Church activities, listen to Gospel Music, be active in the Church, give 10% of my gross income to God, follow God’s commandments, be a good role model to other Christians, share God’s Words, and a lot more. If you know who my parents are you would understand why I was raised this way.
My father has a degree in Theology, has been in the ministry for years, and currently a full-time host Pastor of a Baptist Church in my little home town. My mother has a degree in Christian Education and is currently a Teacher in a Christian School also owned by the Church. I was born and raised in a Christian family. I am expected to be the kind of Christian daughter they wanted me to be.
But I have a confession to make..
I am not perfect.
When I say this, I’m not saying I’ve done horrible evil things in my 29 years of existence.
What I’m saying is that, I struggle to pray every day. I struggle in finding the time to read the Bible. I, most of the time listen to worldly songs. I prioritize my bills and wants over giving my tithes to God. I have watched lustful movies that are adulterous and are shamelessly ungodly. I haven’t shared God’s Words to anyone for a while now and I have hated people who never did anything wrong to me except that they always seem to be very happy in their lives and I am not (or so I thought).
But you know what’s mind blowing?
I still feel God’s presence even though I feel like I am not doing what He wants me to do in my life right now.
I still feel God’s love for me even though I’ve disappointed Him over and over again.
I still feel His unconditional love for me.
It’s almost embarrassing to say this because really, I don’t deserve His love. Yet He loves me anyway.
And through all of it, I know exactly what He wants to tell me.
This song is His message for me and you..
I pray for whoever you are struggling to make it right in life, to seek God in everything that you do. You don’t have to write a poem or think of the perfect words to speak to Him, He is always there to listen. And when He answers, trust me, you will know.
The seed that fell among thorns stands for those who hear, but as they go on their way they are choked by life’s worries, riches and pleasures, and they do not mature. 15 But the seed on good soil stands for those with a noble and good heart, who hear the word, retain it, and by persevering produce a crop. Luke 8:14-15